blowsfortono | (no subject)

It's dumb. [his voice a little raw] If he wanted to go back to Ryuunosuke, I wouldn't want him to stay with me. I want him to do what he wants.

[ruffles your hair, half a noogie]

Stop saying that perfectly reasonable things are dumb.

I mean it's dumb to be scared.

[but he doesn't deny it, just rubs his face a little then drops his hand]

If he did, well, I'd just be in Ryuunosuke's position, and it wouldn't be anybody's fault any more than it's anybody's fault now. [but the thought makes his stomach knot and he stares down at his shoes]

True enough. Except it's incredibly obvious that he's head over heels for you.

Besides, I'd never take him back.

[that makes him laugh a little, leaning against you slightly more, some of the tension bleeding out of his shoulders]

I guess. [but now he just looks pleased and a bit shy, his hands fidgeting in his lap]

It's really, really obvious. And I really, really wouldn't.

...are you mad at him. [looking up at you, finally]

No. Just realistic. It's pretty obvious in retrospect that his heart had wandered some time before we ended it. If we weren't suited enough that I could keep his attention, that isn't something that will change. And it's not what I want in a relationship.

[and she actually does seem zen about that]

[and that's what makes him relax completely, his face clearing a little as he leans against you]

Okay.

[you get an actual hug]

Ryuunosuke might not have his feelings sorted out all the way yet, but Takeru and I do. You don't have to worry about that.

[you get a hug back, then, his face against your shoulder]

...thanks.

[pets your hair]

It's only the truth.

I just--I like this a lot. With Takeru, and everything. I don't want to feel like crap because of it.

[shakes his head a little]

I don't want anybody else to feel like crap because of it either.

It's a good thing, you and Takeru.

And the reasons that Ryuunosuke feels the way he does have very little to do with you, even if he did snap at you. They really are between him and Takeru, or between Ryuunosuke and himself.

Besides, he wants you to be happy.