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[blowsfortono]

[when a certain blue ranger comes back from doing whatever it is that he does, he may find a certain pink ranger in his cabin, ostensibly practicing calligraphy but also pretty obviously waiting for him]

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[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

E-eh?

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

Don't lie, ne?

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

But...

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

No buts. This isn't the kind of thing where we can pretend something is all right when it isn't.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

Then what do we do..?

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

We make it right, or we don't do it. I'm not going to hurt you so much to have him, doubly so when he can't be honest to me with his own feelings.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

Just to be clear, you're not hurting me with anything you're doing.

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

Mm. But you're still pretending.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

[sighs]

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

[sips her tea and gives you time to chew that over]

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

. . . Do you believe we've only been working out on the basis of pretense?

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

No. I think you really love each other.

It seems like Ryuunosuke is the one who's more afraid it's pretense.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

He told me to trust him.

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

And do you? Trust isn't something that can be ordered.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

... I want to.

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

[that was both the saddest answer and the expected one. takes your hand between both of hers]

But?

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

It's hard. He expects me to be open and come to him when I have worries, but I know he wouldn't do likewise.

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

Mm. That's a bit difficult. He doesn't seem to want to share his feelings.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

[s-shrugs]

It's not as bad as it used to be.

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

Mm. I know. But that doesn't make it easy.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

Do you want to talk to him? Or should we, together?

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

[sighs a little]

I need to talk to him. But I don't want to force you to say things that you don't want to say to him. I'm already making enough trouble, ne?

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

... [puts his cup down]

You're not making trouble, Mako. You're the one who has to deal with a situation you didn't foresee and never had any preparation for. It wasn't even our intention to tell you, given the pressure and guilt you might feel, but that didn't really work out. Could you please try to stop blaming yourself?

[pinkufortono.livejournal.com]

[is silent for a long moment, staring into her teacup and considering this]

I can try, if you can try to stop worrying yourself over things that happened or didn't happen between you and someone who wasn't me.

[wetfortono.livejournal.com]

... Aah, that.

[also considering, if with a bit of a self-depreciating smile]